commission

Pandora Pals and #Inktober

A bit of an art dump!

I was commissioned by a wonderful return customer, "Rooth", to do a scene with a character he had designed named Cinnamon, who is a Na'Vi & jackrabbit hybrid.  All he asked was that I pull out all the stops, go "all in" on the backdrop, etc and do a really nice Pandora scene that did the character (along with a little gecko dragon pal that I had designed & which he adopted) justice in all it's brightly colored, glowing glory.  It's one of my favorite pieces in a while, but it definitely makes me want to practice doing detailed backgrounds more.

I've also been participating in the #Inktober... event?  Meme?  Hashtag?  I don't know what to call it. ;^_^  But anyway, I've been doing a lot of drawings on what are basically half-sheet sticker labels that I usually use for printing customs forms for my international shipping.  

So what you end up with are these super cool 8.5" x 5.5" original drawings that can be stuck to anything (though they wouldn't hold up to moisture or really any outdoor exposure; they're just paper with an adhesive backing).  But I have one stuck to the cover of a sketchbook right now, and it looks great. They're pretty neat, and fun to do!

 I've drawn a few for myself, as well as a bunch as commissions for folks, and have been posting them all to my newly-resurrected Instagram account as each one is finished.  If you would like one for yourself, I'll be doing them for $20 until the end of the month.  Just send me an e-mail!  

Last thing of note: I will be moving between now and the end of the month from my current apartment to a house nearby my current roommate will be closing on within the week.  We don't know the EXACT close date so I'm not sure when the move will happen, but there will likely be a couple days of radio silence on my end.  So if you follow me on twitter or e-mail me and get crickets, that's why.

Once I've moved and settled in, I've got a bunch of stuff planned that I want to make/do and share with you guys.  Stay tuned! ^_^

-Lizzy B.

Sleep is a luxury, and Stress stole my wallet.

What am I doing.

The first night, I was so wide awake and stressed out about all of the work I SHOULD have been doing and how PRODUCTIVE I COULD have been doing if I weren't wasting my time lying in bed, I stayed up until 10 in the morning doing thumbnail sketches for commissions and outlining the script for the 3rd issue of BPD (I'm about 1/3 of the way drawing the outlines for issue 2).  I'd hoped that forcing myself awake at 2:30pm (only allowing myself 4 hours of sleep) would make me so excausted that I would crash into bed at a reasonable hour, which for me would be anywhere from 10pm to midnight.  

Yet somehow, I still found myself at 2am, wide awake, and mind racing about what a LAZY GOOD FOR NOTHING ASSHOLE I WAS.  Since it was that weird "I'm wired and yet somehow not able to focus on anything" drunk-ferret type insomnia, the best I could do was read the first 3 chapters of Ursula Vernon's Digger anthology before forcing myself to at least lie the fuck down and pretend to sleep.  The sun had risen before I managed to drift off.

Now, it's night #3.  It's currently 3:23 am as I'm writing this.  I have the "you haven't slept well in days" shakes (because well obviously) and my eyes feel the dry sort of tired.  I also had 2 glasses of wine at around 10:00 and felt pretty sleepy come 11:30, and yet once the head hit the pillow, NOW it's time for the brain to remind me "hey, asshole, you got nothing done today!"

Well, obviously I got nothing done today, jerk.  I haven't slept like a normal person in 3 days.

If I keep digging, maybe I'll find the sleep...

If I keep digging, maybe I'll find the sleep...

....ok, full disclosure: I haven't slept like a normal person in months.  But it's only been full-blown insomnia for 3 days.  Or at least I haven't actually called it insomnia until 3 days ago.

I'm pretty sure it's stress.

When I have a To-Do list that doesn't get done, it makes me feel guilty. Guilt leads to stress.  When I have a To-Do list with multiple things on it that all seem of equal priority to finish, I have a hard time deciding what to do first, because as I actively work on one, I can't shut off the guilt over not doing the other thing.  More stress.  Then as the To-Do list gets longer, the guilt grows, because things aren't getting done as quickly as they should and now I'm dreading all of the angry e-mails demanding where their work is and why it's taking so long.

I think you get the idea.

Here's the thing;  I got into being an artist because it was something I genuinely enjoyed doing.  It's been something I was passionate about since I was a kid. I knew I wanted to be an artist professionally even at the start of High School, and then later went to college to pursue this thing that, had my parents not been the type of people to save for that kind of thing since I was in diapers, I'd be in debt to my eyeballs.  This is a career I have very stubbornly pursued for the majority of my life.

So what is my problem now?  Is it because I'm not where I thought i'd be professionally by now?  Is it the fact that my audience and the demand for commissions has dropped significantly since I initially put BPD on hiatus?  Is it because financially I'm barely scraping by every month because of that lack in demand, and am at a complete and total loss at how to change that?

I started drawing because it was something I enjoy.  But I can't draw for fun anymore because even THAT joy is sucked out by the fact that I SHOULD be doing something else.

The only step I know to take at this point is to not accept ANY more commissions until my To-Do list is 100% empty.  I realize that will not help the "I'm totally broke" stress, but if I can at least not have to worry about a buyer becoming upset that their art is taking too long, or a BPD fan wondering when the heck issue 2 is coming out (which, by the way, will be done before I go to Anthrocon the 2nd weekend in July)... that's something I can control.  My income was never something I could predict, but at least I can try to get control of my workflow.

I'm not asking for charity.  Nor do I expect it.  Honestly, the greatest thing anyone who's reading this who enjoys my work and wants to show their support is to just post so in a comment.   The tip jar in Lizzie-Bean.com side bar is there if you feel inclined to use it, as is my Patreon subscription feed, but don't feel obligated to do either.  Any assistance you feel you want to offer, even if it's just a few kind words, would be appreciated more than you know.

So now it's 3:43am.  I'm currently debating if I want to try to sleep again now, or stay up as late (or early?) as possible and just get a LONG sleep Wednesday afternoon into night, as I have to be out of the house at 7am on Thursday.    Given that worrying about that is just another cherry-on-top of the stress cake, it'll likely be the later.

Anyway, um.... thank you for reading this.   I'm gonna go send out a bunch of e-mails and... I dunno... try to not feel like a lump. 

-Lizzy B.

A Snake and his Harp

Another time lapse art video! Woot!

This was a commission I originally did as just a black-and-white line art, but which was later upgraded to full color upon request.  Humm, not sure what else to say about this one, other than that... uhh... naga-bodies are fun to draw? ;^_^

Sorry, I got nuthin.  Anyway, here's the full piece!

...and of course, the time-lapse video.

On a side note: My Patreon campaign has not only successfully completed it's first month, but quite a few folks have already received their $6+ goodie packs!  Extra-special thanks to @AntiUmbra, @Scigglicious@SilverSean85, and @The_Foxish for sending me pics! :D If you got a goodie pack and want to share it, tweet a photo to me at @LizardbethArt

If you want a goodie pack of your own - or just want to support me & my work - please visit my Patreon Page and join up.  Goodie Packs go to the first 100 subscribers who choose to pledge over $6, but any amount is met with appreciation and psychically-transmitted high fives. ^_^

Until next time, friends!

-Lizzy B.

WIP : Duel-Character Badge

Been working on probably the most complex badge I've ever done for "Aaeden", involving 2 of his characters.  I haven't ever done any badge with 2 distinct characters before; I've done simple badges with male & female versions of the same character, couples badge sets, and badges with a character holding a plush of a second character, but nothing quite like this.  A nice challenge!

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Being it's a WIP, things may change between now and the final, in specific I'm waiting for an OK on the flat colors before I finish up with shading and highlights.  But I thought I'd share what I had so far as I'm pretty proud of it!

-Lizzy B.

Inix & Hida - 2 part Commission

I've done a number of commissions for "Hida", and they're always a joy to do.  Namely because he gives me lots of freedom and flexibility to have some fun with his pieces.  The only instructions I was given for these was that in one picture, his little dragon character gets sat on, and about to get eaten in the other.  Ahh, the dangers of being tiny.  

His only other request I have one of my BPD girls in the pictures, but my choice as to who.  I had already done these 2 themes with Lizardbeth, so I decided to go with Inix. 

Are you curious about getting a commission from me sometime in the future?  I have a helpful and informative Google doc of any commission info and prices you might need. And as always, if you have any questions, don't hesitate to contact me. :)

-Lizzy B.